Day 43: Friday

Oh no! Look how unorganized I am today! No quote even!!!!

It is a busy day chasing down the sneaky people who hope no one cross references data on Hot lunch.  I do actually check it!!!! Good thing I do as it explains the shortfall of $120.

Anyway had the chance to sit and have tea with a friend which was nice and relaxing.  Seems like theres not enough hours in the day anymore. Can’t believe its Friday again.  Sad reality is I will still be Xmas shopping on Thursday once the kids leave and I have been paid. Talk about cutting it to the wire!

So today is scale day. I did not expect to lose this week as I have not really followed my calories as closely as usual.  I weighed in at 225.00 lbs on the dot, so I am down 0.6 lbs from last week. NO gain is good news for me.  The next few weeks I have to watch closely ton ensure I stay on track.  I promised the family that I would make them bacon and eggs on Xmas morning which isn’t going to help. I will only have 1 slice of bacon, an egg and toast which should not be too bad right?

Anyway I really need to get about a million things done!

As always, have a great day!

Day 42:

It’s not whether you get knocked down; it’s whether you get up

~Vince Lombardi~

This expensive ($10 a bottle) little wonder works great in your tea and coffee as a sweetener. It has no calories, is a natural product  and goes a long way. Just one drop per drink will do it.  This is also available as a dry product ( I have not bought that yet) for cooking. It is costly compared to sugar, even compared to Splenda or aspartame but is is NATURAL meaning your body can process it easily.

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What a busy day yesterday was.  I went out with a friend for brunch. Skipped breakfast so I could combine the calories and come out ok. I had a 3 egg omelette with cheddar, onion, mushroom and green pepper. It was served with fresh fruit, toast and potato rounds.  I entered in into Calorie count and figured that it inhaled about 1200 of my 1700 calories for the day.  To keep on track I decided not to have dinner (I wasn’t hungry anyway) and opted for a sandwich at 7pm and a granola bar at 8pm.  I used the treadmill for 30 minutes an hour before we left so that helps a bit I guess.  I don’t expect to see much or any weight loss tomorrow and its been an off week even though I have maintained my 1700 a day.

In the afternoon we processed the schools hot lunch order for January and then when the kids got out of school I trundled them all up to the main road to watch the Olympic torch go by.  By the time we got back and I had the coats put away and snack served most of them were headed home.

My house seems to be a disaster all the time now.  I used to have it tidy and clean all the time but it seems like an endless impossibility these days.  I’m hoping that we can get on top of it this weekend but I have my doubts if it will happen between boot camp, training, groceries, Xmas shopping (with what money I have no idea) and a Xmas party.

Had another weird dream last night, it was summer and I was playing in water with Lisa and Ashley. We were trying to put Lisa on Ashley’s shoulders in shallow water. Ashley was strapped onto a wake board (would never happen). Anyway, we tipped over and I was stuck underneath them with my head face down in 2 foot of water. I could feel the air running out of my lungs….panic setting in.

Lots of dreams about being scared and panicking.  Good thing none of my readers are shrinks!

Anyway, I should get the ball rolling on this day.

As always, have a wonderful day!

Day 41:

More powerful than the will to win is the courage to begin.

~Author Unknown~

This is basically cod oil (I think) and it provides my body with omega 3 and many other missing elements from the lack of fish and seafood in my diet.

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The day flew by for me. I spent the am attempting to tidy the basement. I say attempt because it is next to impossible to tidy with 3 kids under the age of 6 in the house.  That said I did manage to clean it up somewhat and get some laundry done.  I had a long and deep talk with a friend about his life and all the changes he has made.  This left me feeling good for him.

In the evening we had the christmas concert which I always love! I wish that more classes participated in this though.  It seems to be hit and miss. Only SK and grade 1 sang, the choir and the gr 7 and 8 bands.  I would love to see my 8-year-old daughter too……..

So it was a nice night, but then we went home.  The kids carried on and wouldn’t listen which in turn leads my husband to yelling at them. Yelling at them takes away that cool feeling I had from the concert and leaves me frustrated and annoyed.  I can’t say that I can blame him for yelling as they were not listening and questioning everything they were asked to do.  That said it would be nice if we could just get the jobs done without having to hear his trap going off.  I get it, he is tired, he wants to sit down and relax.  Guess what? I’m tired too, I would like to sit down and relax. The difference being that after the kids are dealt with he can sit and I can’t. My to do list still has 2 hours of hot lunch work before I can relax. By relax I mean go to bed.

I had a rather weird dream last night. Someone took me and I was scared.  It was a man who reminded me of a friends ex. A man who would scare and intimidate women on a good day.  In my dream there was a woman there too and a child. They lived in a small filthy little littered house.  Somehow I got away.

Jump forward.

These people live in the basement apartment of my house (which in dream reality is my house and my childhood house mixed together) and I am very nervous about it. I am worried about my daughter being grabbed.  I get this call from my husband’s cousin saying he heard that this guy is out to get me and that I should lock myself in my room until it is safe. I am really scared, my heart is pounding……..

The alarm goes off

What the hell is this about????? I have had weird dreams all week-long. The other day I actually called a friend of mine to make sure he was ok because I had a dream that he was in a lot of trouble.  Strange! I wonder what my brain is trying to puzzle out!

As always have a great day!

Day 40:Tuesday

If you want to look young and thin, hang around old fat people

~Jim Eason~

Ok so thats not the normal inspirational quote I put in but it made me laugh. I remember being at Wasaga beach and looking for someone bigger than me to set up beside. An ugly truth. Thank God I wasn’t the biggest one there or everyone would have set up shop around me!!

This is a fiber pill. This helps clean you out so to speak, also an aide in dieting. As always as your doctor before adding/changing and medications you may take.

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As I type this I am listening the giggles of 3 kids, under the age of 7 dancing to a crazy frog CD.  Today is just a normal day I think, nothing exciting to share with you.  My brain is sort of still in the off mode I think. I turned my alarm off by mistake when Kevin’s alarm went off but still awoke suddenly at 7.30 as usual. It was weird because I was having a rather odd dream and just awoke from it in a startle. It threw a kink at me for the day.

Tonight is busy, we have a Christmas concert for our youngest child at the school and I need to process about 200 hot lunch orders by tomorrow noon.  So OK day and a busy night!

As always, have a great day!

Day 39: Monday

Men who are resolved to find a way for themselves will always find opportunities enough; and if they do not find them, they will make them.

~Samuel Smiles~

This is the multi vitamin I take daily. I have learned that all daily multi vitamins are not the same, so it is worth reading the labels to know the amounts. Don’t assume that the $5 a bottle is the same value as the $20 a bottle as that may not be the case. As always, do not add anything into your diet without first discussing it with your doctor.

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It appears to be a warm wet day. I woke up to the radio saying it will be a high of 4 today which was a good way to start a day I think.  I had training in the afternoon which I enjoy. It is nice to see a friend once a week who up until recently has been a see once every 6 months friend.  I didn’t realize how much I had missed here company.  Her life is changing for the better in my opinion and I think that we are about to be on the same page of life again.  This refers back to a post I made over a year ago on WordPress about friendships.  We mooched dinner from the MIL so I had a small piece of roast beef and lots of veggies.  I stayed up rather late last night wrapping all the gifts we picked up for the three kids this weekend. Thank God for Child Tax or I don’t know if I could have done it.  Anyway I was up until about 1 with the gifts and the season finale of DEXTER. It was a great episode that left me with my jaw on the floor and a panic in my heart for what is to come next season.

This morning I am tired and moving slowly as my brain is not yet on.  I like this quiet time to myself though. When all the kids are still asleep and none of the daycare ones have arrived. It’s only 15 minutes at the most but the silence is golden to me.

Well that golden silence is over. A yappy kid has arrived and she has verbal diarrhea so the moment has passed, plus its time to get my kids up.

As always have a great day!

Day 38:Sunday and I can move

Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all.

~Dale Carnegie~

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Well yesterdays boot camp went great! My body seemed to hold up a little better than the last time and most the things we were asked to do I could complete if I put forth all my effort.  That being said I realized that I am completely incapable of doing bicycle tummy crunches and jumping jacks.  Now I can do jumping jacks per say, just not for a 1 minute sprint, sad but true. The other one is when you lay on the ground, lace your fingers together behind your neck and then pedal your feet in the air touching opposite elbows to your knee. This is for abs and I had a hell of a time doing it without stopping every 10 seconds to breath.  My friend totally kicked ass at this one, I was so proud of her!!

After boot camp we did a quick run into the Le Senza store and Garage store. I still cannot get over the deals to be had in these stores. I got skinny jeans 2 for 1, on sale too so $15 for both, BOTH!!!!   After a McDonald Thai salad (no dressing) I met up with the hubby and we trompt around God’s creation getting Xmas gifts. I am almost done now.

We came home at 8 and watched a movie with the kids, Santa Paws, ten after they went to bed we stashed all the gifts and watched HArry Potter. So this was it for the day, trotted off to bed at just after 1 feeling like I had accomplished a lot for the day.

This morning I got out of bed ok. I can get on and off the toilet no problem much to my delight.  I am trained later today so I can’t be sure if I will be able to say the same tomorrow!

As always have a cheerful day!

Day 37: Saturday: God help me! Its boot camp day!

Mind is all that counts. You can be whatever you make up your mind to be.

~Robert Collier~

It has been exactly 1 month since I last posted a picture of myself for the purpose of a visual look at my size. I figure that a once a month picture should show some changes. So I will start of with the two new pictures. I was planning on wearing the same outfit each time but opted for something more form fitting. Not flattering but still better than a month ago!

December 12 2009                                                                                                                                                 December 12 2009

November 12 2009                                                                                                                                          November 12 2009

I thought that it would be cool to show you the graph monitoring my weight (great idea I stole from lovemybabies2009) loss.  You can see the little spike of weight that drove me over the edge earlier this week!

Ok well I have to go…time to leave for boot camp!

As always have a great day!

Day 36:Friday’s Weigh me day

My advice is to go into something and stay with it until you like it. You can’t like it until you obtain expertise in that work. And once you are an expert, it’s a pleasure.

~Milton Garland~

OK I am so happy today because I FINALLY get to post this graphic thats been sitting in my files patiently awaiting use on a journal entry…..ta daaaaaa

It has finally happened, I have done it, there is over 20 lbs less of me than there was a month ago!  To be more precise I have a loss this week of  1.9 lbs which makes a total loss of  21.1 lbs!!

Last night was our last Aqua Fit class until Jan 7th which is sort of sad. I will miss going!   I will pick up on the treadmill to balance the missing exercise.  These classes seem a lot easier after a weekend of boot camp! It also helps that I love to be in the water.  I can only imagine next summer. I think I will live in the deep end of my pool doing jumping jacks and tucks to improve my tummy.

Well this is it for today. I have an old friend visiting me soon and I should be ready to answer the door!

As always have a fantastic day and I’ll catch you tomorrow!

Day 35:Thursday’s Feeling better

If I feel depressed I will sing. If I feel sad I will laugh. If I feel ill I will double my labor. If I feel fear I will plunge ahead. If I feel inferior I will wear new garments. If I feel uncertain I will raise my voice. If I feel poverty I will think of wealth to come. If I feel incompetent I will think of past success. If I feel insignificant I will remember my goals. Today I will be the master of my emotions.”

www.saidaonline.com

My morning starts off with pills. A cocktail designed to help me be healthier and lose weight.  These all add elements that will improve my chemistry. I am sure just the change in diet helped but this makes sure I get it all.  I will offer additional information on them in future entries. I however recommend you talk to your doctor before adding anything into your diet.

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Yesterday’s depression and worry led to educating myself further on area’s that I thought might  be impacting my journey. I tried to take the negative feelings I was having and find some answers and explanations as to the happening in my body.  It seemed the logical choice to make, it was that or just sit questioning what I did wrong and wallow in self pity and loathing all day.

I found some interesting things that I want to share. I dont know how to give proper credit to these so I will post the link to where I found each thing.

Water regain & weight loss

People who lose weight quickly usually experience some weight regain within a few weeks and very often this is due to some water replenishment.

When we restrict energy intake too much too soon in order to lose weight quickly the body is forced to use up stores of carbohydrates and breakdown protein in the muscles. As both carbohydrates and protein hold water in the cells a loss of these micronutrients also results in a net loss of water. As a result rapid weight loss can often be made up of 75% water loss. After the energy systems stabilize water is regained because some of the protein and carbohydrate stores initially lost are replenished. The water is drawn back into the cells thus gaining back a little weight.

It can be very confusing when one week you lose 4 pounds, the next week nothing. However remember that gaining protein in muscles increases lean body weight. More lean body weight increases our metabolism and help burn fat faster!

http://www.weightlossforall.com/Frustrated.htm

I also found this…………………………………………

IF YOU’RE JUST starting out on a weight-training regimen, don’t be surprised if you happen to gain three or four pounds in the first few days. No, this doesn’t mean that you’ll look like you have a gland problem by the end of the week. Inflammation can make muscles enlarge and swell, trapping water in the muscles, says William Kraemer, Ph.D., an exercise scientist and professor at the University of Connecticut, in the Georgia Tech Sports Medicine & Performance Newsletter.  Also, Kraemer adds, your muscle cells naturally uptake water after a workout.

http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m1608/is_5_18/ai_85011010/

How did we ever function without the internet I wonder?????

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So this morning I wake up and expect the worst from my bathroom scale. It is currently on my hit list and I am mad at it.  So on I get, as I did yesterday and expect the worst. Sure enough it has gone up a little further.

Damn.

Down the stairs I go to pack lunches, make breakfasts, bundle up children to send out the door.  After this is all done I usually have my breakfast.  However this morning as the kids went out the door a small thought crept up in my mind.  I went back up the stairs and hopped back on the scale. Still read the same, but I noticed a problem, a problem that could be the root to all yesterday’s evil.  The scale was on the wrong tile.  Now this may sound silly but it is a valid point.  When I purchased the scale I noticed that on certain surfaces the weight measurement would be off. In the kitchen I weighed 10 lbs more than at the doctor’s office 24 hours earlier. The bedroom on carpet was a whopping 50 lbs less!!!  I found a spot on the bathroom floor that was consistent with the correct number. This is the spot I place my scale to weigh.  Yesterday I was on the tile beside it. Again today I was on the wrong tile.  So I moved it over to the “special” tile and

BAM!!!!!

226 lbs baby!

3 lbs less than yesterday’s misread.

So today I am happy!!! I have a better understanding of weight fluctuation from my research and I will remember this on my next down day (which will likely coincide with snowfall).  Last Aqua fit class tonight for the Xmas break. I love this class, wish they didn’t have to break at all!!!

As always, have a great day!

Day 34: Measure me Pity Party Wednesday

Let us not be content to wait and see what will happen, but give us the determination to make the right things happen.

~Peter Marshall~

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I am feeling depressed today. I imagine that the snow is partially to blame for this.  I also cheated today and stood on the scales which upset me as it has gone UP. Frigging UP. DOWN, its supposed to go DOWN.  So this is my piss and moan day, I warned that there would be days like these when I started this journey.

It is so disheartening to see an increase when I am working so hard to make it drop.  It’s only a 1.5 lbs, but thats last weeks loss and then some, plus it’s still 2 more days till my “real” weigh day.  I know that muscle weighs more than fat, maybe thats it. I don’t know, I just know it leaves me feeling depressed and shitty inside.  Weight gain, snow, cold and wet make me feel like crying. The only good part of this is that it makes me mad, which means I baked up the muffin mix I just got from the school fundraiser and sent it off to school with the kids to put in the staff room. I don’t want it in the house, let them get fat, not me.

Ugh, I hate pity party days. I have been so positive to date.

Anyway today is measure me day.  This wasn’t very inspiring either. Everything stayed the same as last week except I lost 1cm under my bust  for a total of 5cm off.

I don’t care if it’s the measurements or the weight but I emotionally need to see one or the other drop each week. Thats the biggest reward I can ask for, it’s all I really want.

I think that for the next month  I will weigh myself daily so that I can follow the patterns in my weight. I know that each day will fluctuate up and down but maybe then I can identify how my body works better. I am also going to start paying attention to my water intake again as I know it has been down in the last few weeks. I was using the stove timer to ensure I had my eight glasses a day but it’s not been that high the last while.

As always, have a great day, to those who like snow have fun playing in it. I shudder at the thought.