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DAy 450: Baby showers and bitches

Posted in Re Inventing Me by pishposh71 on February 28, 2011

Im not really sure why this bothers me as much as it does.

It really has no bearing on my life but still makes my blood boil.

So yesterday I went to a baby shower in Toronto for a girl that I have never met in my life.  Sounds odd but it really makes sense when I explain it.  SOme of you may not know that I got pregnant with my oldest son while my husband and I where in college (he wasnt my hubby in those days though). It was a bit unsettling to say the least and I was really freaked out by the whole idea of becoming a mother.  I mean, I had a hard enough time changing the cat litter without yakking so how was I going to change diapers?  Anyway on Christmas break my mother in law had a baby shower for me and here I was in a room full of people surrounded by gifts and food.  One of these guests was a good friend of my Mil and I was really overwhelmed by her gift of a car seat.  A stranger gave me a car seat.

Jump ahead 14 years, time to repay the favor, the girl I don’t know is that woman’s daughter who is about to have her first child.  So the cycle starts again.

The baby shower was very nice, done in one of those big rooms you find in apartment buildings for just such uses.  I arrived with my MiL, her sister and another family friend.  When we arrived it was a whirlwind of older ladies setting up food and such, about 60 people are out in the main room.

Being the catty bitch I am I comment how very easy it is to pick out who has had babies and who has not.  One girl in peticular stands out in the crowd as she is a real bombshell.  It comes to find out that this girl is dating the baby mammas brother.  She is praised as a really nice kind girl.

Now I will get to what bothered me.  This really nice kind girl sits on her ass and does nothing to help out.  There are about 4 women rushing around that are in there 60’s, one struggling to do stuff to help while on a cane. These 4 are preparing and dishing food up for about 60 people.  I mean really??

So I got up and offered to help, I mean 15 minutes of my life out of the 4 hours we where there isn’t going to kill me and its going to speed things up considerably.  The other family friend (by this I mean our family friend…she didnt know anyone at the shower either)  decided to help too.  She has a bad knee and is limping but decided to help.  So here we are handing out plates of cake to all the guests.  I walk up to this “really nice kind girl” table and ask if they would like any cake.  What do I get?  Well I get a snotty once over like IM not worth the time of day and IM less of a person than her.  I WANTED TO WRAP MY HANDS AROUND HER NECK!!!!!!  Seriously?  nope.  She is not a really nice kind person.  She is just a really hot chick with a bad attitude.  I would like to say that I am just feeling insecure but it is what it is, this was a straight out rude snub and she knew damn well that I was a guest and not a caterer ( there was no caterer)

I mean I know plenty of people who have perfect reflections (maybe they don’t think so but I do) who are decent people with love, compassion and soul.  Yet this one, it makes me shudder.

God, I hope that’s not what my sons bring home.

Day 449: While I was away…..

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on February 27, 2011

There was a long period of time where I didn’t write here.  When I started this blog it was a place for me to vent and just get things off my chest.  When I had the Halloween Breakdown of 2009 it became a place where I could write about my life and the changes I was making to it for a better me.  After awhile it started feeling like a chore and I really had to work at it to keep writing.  I guess that’s why I stopped writing. Ironically when I stopped writing I also stopped logging my calories and the vicious cycle started to slowly crawl back into my life again.  That my friends is when I realized that all these elements help me stay on track. If it becomes a task then I need to remember whats at stake here.   Do I really want to disappoint myself and not meet my set goals?

As I reach various goals I have a rewards in place to celebrate.  One such reward was a custom-made necklace with some words pressed into them.  The quote was,” Sparks……..the moments that define us”  I like this because I think that when you find that spark in yourself you can achieve anything. I had this spark when I decided to quit smoking and like all mind over matter things I did just that. I stopped.  This reward was scheduled to be at the 199 lb point. I know that’s still a lot of girl but a massive accomplishment from 248.5 lbs that I started at.

For this past christmas I received a beautiful gift from a family whose child I care for. I was moved to tears when I saw it and was touched that she took the time to craft me such a personal gift.  The timing really couldn’t have been better as the scale had blessed me with a 199.8 lb reading the week earlier  (*sigh* makes me frustrated with myself for allowing the scale to go up after reaching this huge milestone)

I received my necklace, which had been custom-made for me, with an added crystal birthstone for my month.  It has been a permanent fixture around my neck ever since.

 

Day 448: but once a week

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on February 26, 2011

So I agreed but once a week to get onto the scales and today is that official day.  I am glad to report that it took pity on me and did report another drop of just over a pound. That’s a total loss of 39.7 lbs since I started last year (and about 10 lbs of the 16 I put back on gone again). Another 6 lbs and I am back where I started and then I can move forward again.

It really is a shame that it’s so easy to gain and so hard to take back off. Well that’s all I have for you today.  I want to get some work done around here before heading out to the gym later.

Have a great day!

 

Day 447:

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on February 25, 2011

The thing with writing daily is that sometimes you don’t really have anything to write about.  Other days I could write pages of stuff and when that happens I tend to save it away for a rainy day in the drafts file.  That said there is nothing in the draft file so I’m at a loss at what to say?

We had a nice meal last night together for my sons official birthday. He requested back ribs, baked potato and corn for dinner and so that is what I made them.  I had the taco salad.  His cake was a Dairy Queen Oreo blizzard cake.  I took the time to go on the DQ website and look up the details of this cake.  After the paramedics revised me I again understood why so many people have become over weight.  An 8 inch cake (at a whopping $27.99 canadian) contains 610 calories per slice.  That is based on the cake being 8 slices which is a very generous slice.   C.R.A.Z.Y

My husband and the kids had 2 slices ( which is really equal to 1.5 slices) each.  I was laughed at when I pulled out my food scale and ate my 60 grams worth.  I’m not wasting half my daily calories on ice cream cake!!!! It was sad enough that such a tiny piece was still 150 cal.  That said it was his celebration and he wanted me to have some, so ironically I had my cake and ate it too because I accounted for it in my overall calorie intake for the day.

Today I plan to eat light, drink lots (not Pimm’s but water) and watch the salt intake.  It is scale day tomorrow and momma wants that 7 to be a 6 or a 5.

Well, for someone who didn’t have anything to say I did OK!  Have a great day!  For your entertainment here is the cake label (not on the actual cake container at all- had to go find it online)

Nutrition Facts
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transparentSodium / Sodium 560mg
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transparentProtein / Protéines 10g
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Vitamin A / Vit Aamine 8%transparent
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Vitamin C / Vitamine C 0%transparent
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Calcium / Calcium 30%transparent
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Iron / Fer 20%transparent

Day 446: Salt

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on February 24, 2011

SALT

I have never been what I would call a big “salt” person.  If you see me out for a meal I’m not that maniac shaking for dear life over every portion of my plate.  I would look at that person and think about how crazy they are to be adding more salt.  My McDonald’s fries are salted perfectly when I get them.

Ya, I know a little better now about salt.  I may not be adding salt to my meals but I am still getting plenty of it in my diet without even knowing it.  I could only hazard a guess how mush sodium I was consuming before I changed my eating patterns but I can bet it was a lot with the take out foods and prepackaged foods we would purchase.

Salt hidden it the foods we eat?

That 1 slice of no fat processed cheese that I used to melt on top of my healthy egg white and pepper scramble.  That contained 14% of my daily sodium.  That’s a lot for a little cheese slice.  Another fave of mine was Le Grill Vegetable seasoning on pretty much anything I would bake.  Again, a whopping 28% of my daily intake from a mere tablespoon of seasoning.  It amazes me how much salt is hidden away in things that I would never of pegged “salty”.  Now don’t get me wrong, I will still allow these things into my diet here and there but gone are the days that they where daily stables.  Anything in moderation can be OK but I am much more aware of whats going into my body these days than I was a year ago when I started. It’s still 1500 calories a day, but now I try my best to make those 1500 calories include good levels of the required nutrients I need.

 

Day 445: **Sigh**

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on February 23, 2011

Well I had a good rant yesterday and I feel better for it.  Like I said in the beginning, sometimes it’s not going to be pretty, anyone who thinks life is may be a fool!

Today I am no longer pissed off at my husband, still slightly irritated by his cluelessness but that’s nothing new.  I enjoyed a smug moment at Wal-Mart when he realized that I wasnt handing over any cash for the game he wanted to get.  He had some money but not enough, I was all torn up about it.

Our son went to pick up his new bike with his birthday money but that was a fail as none of the 4 Wal-Mart’s in our area had one assembled and in stock.  So he has to wait until the weekend.

I had a nice afternoon visiting with a friend at my house and I think that it was good for my soul to relax and chat with her.  Working at home, it can leave you feeling very isolated at times.

Anyway today is going to be a productive day.  I may possibly be able to do a workout as my bum and legs feel almost back to normal.  I have a mountain of laundry to get done and some paperwork to finish up.

I have done really well this week at avoiding the scale, it’s still in the bathroom but I made a commitment not to stand on it until Saturday so I am following through.

So today is a  better day, hopefully tomorrow will continue in that direction too……..

Day 444:Men are total A holes

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on February 22, 2011

I consider myself a pretty patient person, I have to be in my line of work. That said I do have my limitations and so today’s post is going to be a rather nasty rant about what a total jerk my husband is at times.  I personally think that he has it coming to him but don’t say you weren’t warned.

Family Day. A statutory holiday designed for families to spend time together.  Its a new holiday, established because so many of us live in this crazy busy world that we just don’t get time to be a family unit like it used to be.

My family day?  Let me tell you about my family day (still in progress).  My kids come home just after lunch as they had a sleepover at their cousins the night before.  I slept in until 10 which was a real treat, got up and went to make some egg whites. I had to clean the frying pan because my husband had cooked his breakfast and then left it to soak on the stove (I should mention that he will not return to deal with it when its finished “soaking”) so I had my food.  He proceeded to the basement at around 11 and turned on a gaming console. I went and got a bath, made the bed, cleaned up the kitchen, dumped the dishwasher and finished straightening up from the party.  I wanted to watch Desperate Housewives so I did so on the computer since he has the good tv.  The kids arrive home and play here with their cousin for about an hour or so and then he leaves.  I then help my daughter make a costume for a school project, clean up the lunch dishes and switch over loads of laundry.  I sit on the sofa downstairs and comment sarcastically that my husband is spending Family day playing online video games with his brother.  He being clueless starts telling about the game…..I walk away because I don’t give a shit.

At 4 o clock he gets on the phone with his brother and they decide to start playing a different game and he proceeds to go back to the basement to play.  I should also mention that our youngest son asked if we could play a board game together, I tell my husband this and his answer is, well he is playing with the neighbors kids right now so he doesn’t want to do it that bad. What the fuck is wrong with this man???   Ya, cause our 8 year old son is going to sit around waiting for your stupid ass to be ready to be a dad.

I am so sick of this shit it is not funny.  I swear to God that one of 2 things will happen in the future.  I will either take all the game crap and sell it and ban it from our home, or I will snap and leave him. I wonder if there’s a video game you can pretend to have sex? (when your wife is finished with your bullshit)

Total game time logged today as of now is about 6 hours. I would like to mention he has only been conscious for about an additional 40 minutes beyond that.  I actually feel like whacking him so hard that he would be unconscious  again.  I would usually assume that some of this hostility was due to PMS but unless my calendar is really messed up it is not the case.

Some-day’s I have no patience for the bullshit.

Day 443: Cheat Meals

Posted in Re Inventing Me by pishposh71 on February 21, 2011
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I woke up this morning feeling rather guilty about yesterdays food intake.  It was my cheat meal day and its the first real cheat meal I have had since getting back on the wagon again.  I would say that prior to that every day had been cheat meal day to some proportion or other.  So yesterday  consumed about 2050 to 2150 calories.  I know this is good for my body and I know that it will help boost my metabolism but it felt really wrong to do.  Like the dog with that guilty look on his face, you know he has shit someplace in the house and is just waiting to get it from you.

The funny thing is that even at 2150 (its someplace between these 2 numbers as I didn’t weigh that slice of cake for accuracy) I still have a calorie loss for the day of 153. Nothing compared to the usual 500-700 drop but still nothing to scoff.

The party went off well and we ended up with 12 adults and 7 kids. I made  Alfredo in white sauce with chicken, mushrooms and tomatoes, we had garlic bread, Caesar salad and the cake.

Originally I had planned on making a separate meal for myself which was a rather high expectation to place on myself while entertaining a crowd.  Instead I had a cup of cubed chicken, a 1/4 cup of sauce, 1 cup of noodles, whatever amount of chopped mushrooms and tomatoes I wanted, a slice of garlic bread, salad without dressing and a piece of cake.  That explains the numbers anyway!

It was a good evening anyway and the clean up was easy as for once I caved and used paper plates.  This is a feat for me as I’m not a paper plate girl at heart.  Except when away in the trailer  when I use them all the time (we use them to start the fire) because I don’t want to spend all my time doing dishes!

Well this is it for today, Happy Family Day Everyone!!!

Day 442: Party Time

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on February 20, 2011

Today I have to prepare for our sons family birthday party.  We have always had this tradition with our kids.  On the weekend before or after their birthday we have the family over for a meal, cake and presents.  It is easier this way than trying to incorporate family into kids parties (lets face it, nana doesn’t want to go to the play zone!) plus we have a big family.

Tonight I will have 10 adults and 5 kids here to feed which makes for an afternoon full of food prep.  The cake is a black forest number that is a massive slab from the grocery store and which I fear I should stay clear of completely. That said I  have a suspicion that a slice of it will become the cheat meal of this week (depressing as I wanted to have eggs and bacon (well turkey bacon for me) on Family day. Oh the dilemmas I face.

My mom is driving down as well with her “friend” the ex boyfriend. I imagine they will arrive long before dinner so I will have to plan this afternoons time very well in order to get a shower, clean the house and make the meal. I think I may be a tad delusional in thinking this will all happen but we will see!

Day 441: Craziness All Around

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on February 19, 2011

Today is one of those crazy run around days that I have a love hate relationship with.

Its Saturday which means I go off to OPTIMUM BODIES in Ajax to get my ass kicked by my trainer again. I can always count on her to push me just hard enough without setting me up for failure, a trait I admire!

I’m achy already from doing the workout I posted a few days ago. I have done it every morning this week and so the ache I had on Sunday from my last Saturdays workout has not had time to dissolve.  I’m assuming that’s a good thing for my body.

Once done at the gym we are off to take our youngest son shopping for his birthday gifts.  I have no idea what he could possibly need other than a new bike. That said, he seems to think he needs a $600 BMX bike which will not be happening anytime soon.  This is what happens when you have a teenage brother to set the bar nice and high for expectations. Time will tell as to what he will decide on!

Hopefully there will be time for a quiet evening watching a movie.  This week seems to have flashed by so quickly that there has been little downtime.

My trainer and I made an agreement that I would only get on the scale once a week and I am committed to doing as she asks.  She knows better than me about this stuff and so I have to trust that it is for the best!  That said today is Saturday which is the official day I can step on it and I was very happy to see it reported I now weigh 207.8 lbs which means I have a total loss off 38.7 lbs

I will really be excited when I break the 200 barrier again.  Ok off to get this day going, food to pack, legs to shave…..

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