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A year ago……

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on September 23, 2012

I’m a terrible person….haven’t posted a thing on here in almost a year now.  That said even the best of us need a break from it all at some point in time.  Good news is that I am going to try and start wring here again assuming I can find the time in my schedule.


Practicality tells me now is the best and yet worst time to write.

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on October 19, 2011

It has been said that every story has a beginning, middle and an end. I guess that at any given moment in our time on Earth we are at some point of some story that defines who we are. The real question is do we ever really know what part we are in?
Happiness is definitive on our own well-being. I mean we are a product of an environment that we invent and if we allow ourselves to wallow in dissatisfaction then what more can we expect from life? I may have learned this the hard way, and maybe a little too late for my own good but that is what it is and I have little control over the past events. Today could be the end or it could be the beginning, which remains unknown.

Day 662: Struggles

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on September 28, 2011

When we where kids we just wanted to grow up. It was going to be so much easier when we grew up.

Then we grow up……..

We realize that although we can pick our bedtime and pick our TV shows life is far harder than we thought it would be.  I guess that’s why I have been missing from here for so long.  My weight is still dropping, my attitude is still evolving but there are many other factors in play with my life as a whole and some are hard to write about.

This blog is really my place to process, some people who read it are my personal friends, others I have met along the road of finding me, others don’t know me personally (although anyone who is dedicated to reading a persons blog will know that you may as well know that person entirely) and then whoever else stumbles across me.

This has been my place, my silent voice.  Now I find myself at a point that requires gut wrenching soul-searching.  Should my life of reached a point that I could only bear my soul like this? At what point did I become this person? Shut off and unable to express myself within my own home?

This one last hurdle to jump through, no doubt the biggest and most painful one that I need to face to date. No irony  that I saved it for last really.

All that weight. All that negative thinking. All the stress. All the pain bottled down. The question really is can I find a way to move past it all and make a better life for myself or am I going to spin in circles in fear?

How strong am I?

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Day 605: That works

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on August 2, 2011

Weight doesnt just fall off your body.  I mean its a real mass of fat right? I ask because my scale keeps offering up better and better numbers everyday and I fear that it cant possible be true!   That said I will post my morning weight here just because its so nice to say, guess what? Today I weigh 187 lbs on the dot.

It feels much better than that 255lbs I can tell you that!

Day 594: Life as I know it

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on July 22, 2011

Life is weird at times. I mean there are days that I sit around wondering if the day will ever end and then days that fly by in the blink of an eye. Now summer is here I find the time zooming by and I am in bliss as I have sunshine, camping and running to fill my time.

My addiction to coffee is getting worse. I am now brushing my teeth like a lunatic to avoid stains. Good thing I never tried crack I guess.

The greatest news to tell is I have lost more weight. I tend not to talk about weight as I don’t seem to be loosing any, but this week I have. So I am happy to say I am at 193 now. The 180’s are in sight……….

Day 593: I laughed

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on July 21, 2011

Day 592: Gym

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on July 20, 2011

I am fully committed to going to the gym tonight. I didnt run again last night as I have a weird twang in my thigh. I decided that I should listen to my body and wait that one out. If it feels good tonight I will do an hour on the treadmill then my 30 minute workout. Either way I will be at the gym.
Food yesterday went pretty well. The only really bad thing I ate was a jumbo freezie but since it is hot as hell I think I will live.
Also found out that the hole in my tooth is just a chip so I can stop thinking about root canals and stressing about how I would pay for one without benefits. Finally a perk from a family members line of employment!
Thats all I got for you. Sometimes I am pretty boring. More so since I stopped drinking 🙂

Day 591: On the Wagon

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on July 19, 2011

Its a new week and I have committed to being a good girl in the kitchen this week. I have been maintaining a consistent weight the past little while and I truly believe that if anything I am in starvation mode. When I am being good I am eating 6 small high protein meals a day. When I am bad I am eating maybe 3 meals a day.
Anyway I am back on the wagon with my egg whites, protein muffins and chicken. I need to really kick things up a notch if I want to ever reach that goal I made.
Other than that it is hotter than hell here and I am loving it. I am the Queen Bee of summer and will soak up every minute of it!

Day 590: Shameful

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on July 18, 2011

It was a shameful weekend of sin.
I didn’t go to the gym at all.
I ate out several times
I watched 13 hours of Breaking Bad (thats the full first season and half of the second season)
I spent plenty of quality time with my pool.
Not going to sweat it though.
Its Monday.

Day 589: Nothing

Posted in Uncategorized by pishposh71 on July 17, 2011

When I say nothing I mean the only productive things I did where grocery shop and breath.
I spent 3 hours floating around the pool drinking wine and singing top 40 hits off the radio.

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