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Day 524: Feeling Proud

There are moments that stand out in life when you really feel good about yourself and last night I got one of those moments.

As anyone who reads knows I am eating, training and finding all my inspiration from one of my oldest friends training facility and her advice.  I owe them the world for all they have done to help me and I am excited about the opportunity to help promote them with my new healthy approach to life.

As their gym is about half an hour away I joined a local gym to access the equipment I need. This allows me the ability to train 4 or 5 time a week instead of once.  When I joined I think I was viewed as one of those people who says they want to get into shape but never do. I base that on some simple little observations I made.  Now I would like to input now that my friend has always had faith in my ability to do this, even when I sometimes doubted myself.  That made me feel really good about myself, but as a friend that is what is expected of her right?

Well last night when I finished my workout the owner of the gym approached me and said she wanted to show me a few exercises she had watched her trainer use the day prior.  As we chatted she got to her point, which was that she wondered if I would be willing to be a spokesperson for SNAP fitness, basically she said that they would like to utilize my journey to health on their national website.  I think she already knew that I would say no, which I did, but let me tell you that it was a huge moment of success for me!!  This woman who looked at me with uncertain doubt has come full circle and now sees me as a serious case.  I explained to her that although it was flattering I had already agreed to be featured for another facility that had been providing me with routines, diet and motivation for over a year.  She said she understood and told me that I was doing an amazing job!

Today I am a shiny yellow ball!


Day 503: A quiet sort of busy

Today is Good Friday and so I have the pleasure of my entire family being home together except for the oldest son who ditched us to go to his grandmothers..  They don’t know this yet but I want to do some sort of family activity together at some point. One that does not involve controllers, re-spawning or 100 kills.  Maybe a good old-fashioned board game is in order?

I went off last night on my mission to run a dozen errands and ended up in that “trouble comes in threes” situation.  I missed the natural food store by 4 lousy minutes of closing, then realized I had left my blackberry back at this bulk barn someplace, then my husband asked if I had the slip to renew his sticker (which I didn’t) so we had to turn around and start all over again.  Walmart was a total zoo which is always the case when a holiday is upon us but I did get most of what I needed for my husbands birthday dinner on Saturday night.  I am hoping to get all my prep work done today as I have lots to do tomorrow before our friends arrive.  The only thing I could not find for the life of me was evaporated cane juice, I tried Walmart, the health isle of Canadian Superstore and the closed health food store, no luck.  I did however get a bag from my friend Erika who purchased it at Shoppers Drug Mart of all the strange places! I guess that earns her a coconut cream pie if I have enough of everything to make two of them!

So short and sweet today, things to do, beds to make, laundry to wash, pies to make, hair to trim (husbands) I tell you I lead the most glamorous of lives !

Day 499: Photos and such

So today I will be doing my second set of pictures for the Eat Clean Challenge. I’m not really expecting to see much of a change from the first ones as I have only lost another 5 lbs and no plastic surgery has happened!  Anyway I did take the time to bust out the flat-iron and my make up so my head looks good if nothing else.  One thing I have discovered is that although I may love apple green this bikini I picked to use for the challenge  is a bad choice for me.  I will keep wearing it for the monthly photos because I am committed to doing this. However I have realized that if I plan on ever wearing one in real life I better invest some cash into a good quality under wired one.  My boobs are just too big to be given free range!!  Good news is that they are getting smaller slow but sure but I doubt they will ever reach what I consider manageable.I will also be taking my measurements to log with the pictures. Hopefully I will be left feeling accomplished despite the small alterations. Once my photographer has them ready I will post them here for your critic.  My hope is that sometime in June I will invest in a new suit to wear for the remainder of the contest (and tanning in the privacy of my backyard).

Yesterday I managed to squeeze in cooking a batch of meatballs for the freezer. This was the first time that I made them and I have to say they are pretty yummy!  What was even better was the smell of them cooking, it was like I was roasting a turkey and the air smelled like stuffing. I love stuffing!  I am so thankful that my weekly weigh in is on Saturdays and NOT Mondays with Easter on our doorsteps!  Should you wish to make your house smell amazing then head over to  http://optimumbodies.ca/blog/?p=163 to get the recipe  (also available on the blogs listed to the right of my page)

Turkey meatballs ready for the oven

Today is another miserable cold day and as usual I have a list of things that need to get done around here.  I never did finish my baking so will need to whip up a batch of this or that each day to make it happen.  No worries there as my house will be going into GEARS OF WAR 3 BETA mode tonight. So basically that means I will be living with zombies for the next few weeks as all the males in my house will be locked into some hard-core game play. For me that means gym time without any association of guilty for the me time!

Day 496: Workouts to Kill :0

So last night I hit the gym with my trainer at hand so she could see the facility I am utilizing locally.  With our crazy life schedules now that the weather is getting nice I think it is really good that I did get this membership. I know myself well and if I hadn’t that would likely mean little to no weekly exercise if not heading out to see her.

She built me 3 routines to work different areas of my body.  All of them are challenging and will push me to my full limits.  I am looking forward to completing my first full workout tonight along with my walk/run time which I am adding in on every other workout in hopes that I can build some stamina for this 5k run in that fall.  I really don’t want to walk it at all, I would like to jog the entire thing if possible.  That’s a big goal for me but I am no longer afraid to try new things and if I don’t try then I’m the one who looses out on the experiences right?

Tomorrow will be a planning day for me as my husband is working.  Tonight I will grocery shop for the next week and run all my errands then it leaves the entire day open for me to play in the kitchen and prep meals in advance to make my life easier.  My stock pile of frozen baked goods have now gone so I plan to make some cinnamon protein bread, some poppy-seed lemon protein muffins, some turkey meatballs, zucchini turkey burgers, pumpkin pancakes and also some black bean brownies. I will look for a couple of other things to make too.  I am hoping that I have better luck than I did the other day in the kitchen when I made the grossest banana bread ever (you cannot substitute oat flour for whole wheat flour) and burnt the kids cake!

I have decided that I am going to make one recipe out of this cookbook I just got each week.  It is a thing that the government is handing out to schools as part of their new Healthy Eating policies which will take effect in all schools in the fall of 2011.  I am hoping that I can get my kids to like some of this stuff and if they do I will bake batches to freeze up and give to them for school lunches.  This I am hoping may enable me to ween them off the current shit they live on that is overpriced and of no value to their bodies.  I have created sugar demons and I am slowly attempting to real them back in.  I will post the recipes I make tomorrow if anyone likes to bake!

I’ll also direct you again to the following link for lots of great meal ideas from my dear friend, exercise guru and chef extraordinaire Laura over at Optimum Bodies.   http://optimumbodies.ca/blog   Here you will find most of the recipes I have listed to make, the others I will add for you over the weekend!

Day 483: Thank You!

Oh thank you thank you thank you for letting it only be a 24 hour bug. I was terrified it was going to be a 3 day deal that would ruin my entire weekend and all the birthday plans I have for our girlie girlie shopping day with my daughter.  I have secretly been looking forward to this time together for the last week.  Its fun to go off with her and shop.  I also know that the clock is ticking on this activity and in a few years I wont be a part of this anymore.

Our kids go everywhere with us, we have always been like that.  It’s not very often that we go without them.  In some ways I think that’s a good thing and in others I think it’s a bad thing.

Anyway, today was scale day and as we all know I am desperately fighting the scale to see 199 again.  My body has other plans though and intends to be a pain in the ass every step of the way on this.  So today the scale is 201.6 lbs. This is also after being sick yesterday so it may not be a true reading.  I did make sure that I drank yesterday, ginger ale and water all day long in hopes that I wouldn’t become dehydrated.  When I went to bed at 8pm last night I cheated and got on the scale and it said 200.2 lbs.  I had a chuckle at that.  Even when I’m sick that bloody scale won’t give me the satisfaction of seeing a 1 instead of a 2.  This is a big milestone for me.  It’s a mark of success that holds significance and these past few weeks have been a battle to defeat it.  It hasn’t pulled me down or made me depressed like it would have a year ago but rather I find it annoying and it just plain pisses me off.  Last year this would have made me depressed and think about junk food. This year it makes me want to go to the gym.  As the time passes the way you think changes and also improves for the better.  I am hoping that eventually I can get my family to make these changes too.

Thankful for feeling better and glad that I can get a workout in today plus pay for my years membership (thank you tax return) which is another positive step toward my final goal.

I have decided to be a little less demanding of the scale. ALmost 3 weeks ago I thought I would break that 200 mark and I am still fighting with it.  I would like to break it next week but I have accepted that it may take longer.  I understand that WILL happen because I can control that.  I also know that the WHEN is totally out of my hands and in control of this wretched body!!

Day 480: Its a slow race

Posted in Re Inventing Me by pishposh71 on March 30, 2011
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There are days that I think of my body like a teenager.

Not like all firm and perfect though. More like all sulky, bitchy and moody doing everything in its power to piss of the authority figures (which in this case would be my brain).  I have been busting my ass the last 8 weeks to get back on track again.  To remove that little 16 lb slip that happened when I dropped the ball last Christmas and forgot to hold myself accountable.  My body with forthcoming to start with and the pounds started to slip off again, we hit a lull three weeks ago which was resolved with some serious restraints on what and how I would eat.  This worked well too. I became very excited as the scale moved back toward my original point.  Now however it seems to want to hover at the same mark again.  I need to get that 4 to be a 0 again and then I can move forward again.  I will have returned to the point I left off.

This may not make sense to someone new here, hell being excited to weigh 200 lbs again may seem sad to some.  For me though? It means I have undone a winters worth of damage and put the train back on the tracks so to speak.  Breaking that pesky 200 lb mark has been a struggle to say the least.  My body wants to fight me on this every step of the way but this is one battle it’s not going to win.

So I wait for the weekend to arrive so I can climb on the scale again.  I need to see a positive result for my own mental health. If I don’t? well  we will keep going and figure out what to adjust to see more results.

This week I have been to the gym every day.  Creating workouts has been a rather fun experience for me.  I have always been directed what to do (which is fine by me in this area of my life) but it feels good to be teaching myself what exercises do what and actually thinking about what I am doing.

Yesterdays workout looked like this:

Treadmill—–5 minutes——–level 6-135-147
Leg Extension machine———–45 lbs 3 sets of 15
Seated Curl Machine———65 lbs  3 sets of 15
Abduction machine———–65 lbs 3 sets of 15
Adduction machine————50 lbs 3 sets of 15
Angled Leg press————–120 lbs 3 sets of 15
Plank—————60 seconds ( a REAL plank up on my legs not my knees!!!!!!!!!!) only once though 🙂
Dumbbell front raise———-2 x 10 lbs 3 sets of 10
Incline Press machine———–41 lbs ( 10 x 2 plus bars 10.5 lbs x2) 3 sets of 8
Abdominal Machine————–60 lbs 3 sets of 10
Crunch on mat————–no weight 3 sets of 15
One dumbbell triceps————-20 lbs 3 sets of 15
Side Ups————————no weight 3 sets of 15
Total calories they estimate burned based on my weight is 581
Time to complete: 1 hour

As for food:

8am  200 grams egg white with veggies, slice of Ezekiel 4:9 bread toasted, 1 tsp becel Olivia, 1/2 cup OJ

11am 1/2 grilled cheese sandwich ( it was an accident) and a protein shake

3pm  yogurt and strawberries

6pm chicken stir fry (no rice) and a really gross Weight watchers lemon cake (wont eat that again)

8.30pm  250g egg whites and 20g light cheddar cheese

Day 443: Cheat Meals

Posted in Re Inventing Me by pishposh71 on February 21, 2011
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I woke up this morning feeling rather guilty about yesterdays food intake.  It was my cheat meal day and its the first real cheat meal I have had since getting back on the wagon again.  I would say that prior to that every day had been cheat meal day to some proportion or other.  So yesterday  consumed about 2050 to 2150 calories.  I know this is good for my body and I know that it will help boost my metabolism but it felt really wrong to do.  Like the dog with that guilty look on his face, you know he has shit someplace in the house and is just waiting to get it from you.

The funny thing is that even at 2150 (its someplace between these 2 numbers as I didn’t weigh that slice of cake for accuracy) I still have a calorie loss for the day of 153. Nothing compared to the usual 500-700 drop but still nothing to scoff.

The party went off well and we ended up with 12 adults and 7 kids. I made  Alfredo in white sauce with chicken, mushrooms and tomatoes, we had garlic bread, Caesar salad and the cake.

Originally I had planned on making a separate meal for myself which was a rather high expectation to place on myself while entertaining a crowd.  Instead I had a cup of cubed chicken, a 1/4 cup of sauce, 1 cup of noodles, whatever amount of chopped mushrooms and tomatoes I wanted, a slice of garlic bread, salad without dressing and a piece of cake.  That explains the numbers anyway!

It was a good evening anyway and the clean up was easy as for once I caved and used paper plates.  This is a feat for me as I’m not a paper plate girl at heart.  Except when away in the trailer  when I use them all the time (we use them to start the fire) because I don’t want to spend all my time doing dishes!

Well this is it for today, Happy Family Day Everyone!!!

Day 437: Motivation

It has been said many times that you must find as many forms of motivation that you can to help push you toward success. Be it music that uplifts your spirit and encourages you toward your goal, rewards to give as you make your milestones, or small reminders to help you stay focused.

I have all of these things in my life and I use them to drive me whenever I face temptation. Yesterday was one of those days for me.  I said yesterday that I had no worries about my husband bringing me chocolate for Valentines Day and that was a safe statement. What I didn’t expect was for a friend to show up at my door with some chocolates.  SOUND THE ALARM!!!!!!!

So how do you talk yourself off of the ledge when handed about 900 calories worth of milk chocolate yumminess? You turn to those things that can motive you.  So how did I make it through this crisis?

Easy, I decided to photo edit a screen saver for my Blackberry. I got this idea from my friend and trainer who also has an image on her phone to remind her of what she wants.

My ideal body belongs to an actress named Alyson Michalka who stars in a TV show called Hellcats (I don’t watch it though).  I have seen the commercials for this show a million times and have always thought that she has a great figure (and reminds me vaguely of my former shape) Now Alyson was born in 1989 making her a baby at 22, so without a time machine or major medical breakthroughs I will never look exactly like this.  That said I would like to have these curves and cuts to my shape again (I realize that I may need a tummy tuck to have that belly after 3 c sections though) and a breast reduction could leave me comfortably back at a 38C again with my nipples facing the wall instead of the baseboard!

It is one particular poster of the entire cast that I like and so I edited out everyone else and worked from there.

Day 352: Yummy Cookies

Ok we all know that cookies are yummy right?  and if its yummy then its very bad for you right?


I have spent my morning making some very yummy cookies that are actually not too bad considering that they are what they are.  So today I am going to share a recipe with you! This recipe can be found in an amazing book called The Eat Clean Diet Cookbook by Tosca Reno. I did alter it a little to lighten the calorie load.










Breakfast Fruit and Nut Cookies

1 cup brown sugar (I used brown splenda so you use only

1/2  cup of this)

1/2 cup of Olivina or light oil

6 egg whites

1/2 cup of finely chopped figs

1/2 cup of dried cranberries

2tsp of vanilla

2 cups of all purpose flour (I used one cup here)

1 cup of whole wheat flour (I used 2 cups here)

1 cup of bran flakes

4 tbsp of ground flax seed

1 tsp baking soda

1 tsp ground cinnimon

1/2tsp all spice

1/2 cup slivered almonds

Preheat oven to 350 degrees F

Combine the sugar, Olivina and eggs in a bowl. Stir in vanilla, figs and cranberrys

In another bowl mix all the other ingrediants.

Add the dry and wet together and blend.

Drop 1 tbsp per cookie onto the tray lined with parchment paper (or use a silicone mat) and bake for 12 minutes.

Should make about 30 cookies.

Recipe book says the following for nutricinal values(but they say it will make 24 cookies not 30:

Calories: 154   Calories from fat:56 Protien:2g  Carbs: 22g  Dietary fibre: 1g  Sugar 12g  Fat 6g  Sodium 26g

Im thinking out loud here so bear with me!  This recipe says it makes 24 cookies at 154 cal each. So the total batch equals a whopping 3696 calories.  I made 30 cookies so that would make them 122 calories each.

384 calories are in a 1/2 cup of Splenda Brown Sugar blend instead of 830 in a cup of normal brown sugar which is a big differance of 446 calories saved!

So I figure that if you used my recipe you’d be looking at 30 cookies again.  The brown   3696 for 24 normal cookies or 30 cookies at  122 cal each

The normal recipe gives you 34.5 calories from brown sugar. If you switch to Splenda you have 12.8 calories per cookie

Basically you are looking at 100 calories per cookie!


Day:351 How Do You Do It?

I was recently asked how I do this? work daily toward my goal?  I was originally going to reply to the message directly but decided to write the answer here in hopes that it might help someone else too.

The biggest thing is to really want it.  My 3 kids and husband eat all sorts of crap and I understand how hard it is to have it in the house.  I also understand that I can modify some of their eating habits but cant expect total change from them either.  You have to learn that just because it is there you don’t have to eat it.

I don’t find it too bad because I have a plan that I am determined to meet. (I know that reading that statement may cause feelings of hatred and the need to bash me in the face with a cast iron frying pan)

How did I manage to do this? how can I watch them eat chicken wings and fries when I don’t?
For me I had to hit rock bottom and truly admit about how I felt about myself.  I was 248 lbs when I started and was gaining at a slow but steady rate each year.  I told myself that I was better off than my other friends who seemed to always be drooling over the desert menus on a night out for dinner, then never ordering.  I meanwhile would never hesitate to get whatever I wanted.  I was the wise one I thought.  I am eating what I want to eat, I am enjoying my life.

Do you see that??

It took me a long time to see it.  The words jump out at me now and I see them as if they are in large font and Italic bold print.  I am enjoying my life.  Really?  Food is not a definition of describing life.

Admitting the truth

You would think that admitting the truth to yourself would be easy but it’s often not.  I mean how the hell do you lie to yourself right?

Well we do it all the time. It took an entirely messy drunkfest at a party full of people 1/2 my age who had had no babies, flat bellies and shiny new high school diplomas to trigger mine.  It was not my most dignified moment but it was one that turned on a light in my head.

I was not happy.

I didn’t like how people looked at me.

I didn’t like how I would wrinkle up my nose in disgust at my image when I get out the shower, how I didn’t like when my husband touched my flabby baby pouch

I didn’t like how I felt inside about my own body image.

I didn’t like me.

So what are you going to do about it?

I mean I’m  100 lbs over weight and have no money to invest in improving myself. What if I take weight off?  I can’t afford to get new clothes? I can’t afford to buy fancy groceries.

Its a lot of I can’ts and they are just excuses. I used them to try to get out of it too.

The reality

Money is an issue for almost everyone.  It really can be that factor that can derail an honest to goodness good intention plan. Its sad but its true.  Exercise can be done at home and doesn’t have to involve any expensive weights or equipment.  However exercise at home requires a strict mindset and commitment which is really hard to do.  I suggest that if you cannot go to a gym that you find a buddie in crime.  I think it’s better to have a work out friend than a diet friend.  If  you manage to get a mindset to succeed nothing will derail you faster than your partners failure.  I know this from past experiences.  So now my friends work out with me here and there but no one is on this journey with me but me.  I have one person close to me for this but I know that I can count on her 110% because I honestly think that my success means as much to her as it does to me, that said I do not think this is the norm for most people in this situation.

So to start the journey you first need to dig deep inside yourself and really think about what it is you want from life.  Why you really want to take this weight of and what you are willing to do to in order to make it happen.

Think about that a bit and then watch for another post.  ALso check out Optimumbodies/blog on my links to the right of my page.  Recipes and valued advice (this is my can count on her 110% person)

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